Wednesday, November 12, 2014


      I  am a very private person when it comes to my personal life and social media. I feel like everything is not for the internet, some things need to stay between family and close friends. In the month of October I had been dealing with a lot of things I never expected to happen. It all started when for 8 days my mom could not find my Aunt Carrie,  my Mother thought  she had went out of town. A week later my Aunt called her and told her she had been in the hospital for something minor. She told my Mom to pray for her. The nexy day we found out my Aunt was back in the hospital... but this time it was the worst news I would have ever expected to hear. We were told she had stage 4 cancer, my mom was very upset but I told my mom not to worry It could not be true. I thought as much as my Aunt would go to the doctor's she would have been knew if she had cancer. Sadly my Aunt found out when we all did that she had this disease. This was heart breaking to me but I tried to keep the faith. I went to see her in the hospital and she looked like the fighter I have always known her to be. I wanted to help her so I did my own reearch on things that helped cure cancer. I found out that some people with stage 4 cancer cure their cancer by drinking Raw carrot juce daily. So what did I do? I ran to the store and bought organic carrots and kale to make her juice.  I love my aunt and would have done anything to help save her life. I made her the juice and the next day took it to her, she was to weak to eat or drink. It was so hurtful seeing someone so strong for the first time unable to be strong.  Every day my Mother and I went to the hospital to see her, just sit with her, we just wanted to be there for her. Time passed and I was hopeful she would get better but she didn't. After weeks of being in a hospital my Aunt decided she wanted to go to a hospice care center, this broke my heart.  I could not believe it but I end up finding out from my aunt's nurse who was one of my best friend Howard james who passed away when we were in high school Mother Patarcia. Crazy how all of us are connected and came together in a time like this. My aunt was in the hospice care for three days the other night Novemeber 11th at 2 am in the morning my Aunt passed away. I feel so much hurt and can not stop thinking this is not fair... My Aunt Carrie was the type of person that went beyond and over for other people, would help you in what ever situation a person was in, would make other people's stress her own. She Loved God and adored her children and Grandchildren, her family period,  I really can't imagine my life without her, she was always there for whatever high or low I had through out my life. Cancer  has also claimed the life Of my Nana last year in August. I pray to God they find a cure for this silent killer. It has taken the lives of too many amazing loving people.  I could not just do a post about her she is worth a entire story. I will always miss her and hold her close to my heart. With faith that I will see my Aunt and my Nana again one day although I am heart broken their lives were cut short.